Ten years ago today (January 25, 2003), I fell 80 feet (24 meters) while rock climbing at T-Wall, a popular climbing site in Tennessee. The doctors said I might not live; when I did, they said I’d never be the same again. Today, not only am I “normal,” most people don’t even know this incident ever happened. This is my story.
The sun was falling from the sky. Once it dropped below the hills, all light and warmth would disappear. The clouds were chameleons: orange and pink and purple. Somewhere a bird twittered.
An icy wind blew. It crept into my jacket. I shivered. Beyond the edge of the mountain, my friend was standing far below. “Just remember what I said,” he called.
Just remember what he said.
I took a deep breath and leaned back. My harness cut into my jeans. My fingers were numb. I ignored them.
Grab the rope. Loosen the rope. Hop, hop; braaake.
Grabbing the rope above the carabiner with my left hand, I loosened the rope with my right, and then I hopped. Braaake. That wasn’t so bad. I tried again. Grab the rope. Loosen the rope. Hop, hop. Braaake. This time, I descended a little further.
I actually enjoyed belaying. Bouncing down the mountainside, feet first, weight in a harness, I felt like I was on a trampoline. It was fun. But this was the first time I’d ever self-belayed. This time, my rope was my partner.
Grab the rope. Loosen the rope. Hop, hop; braaake. Grab the rope. Loosen the rope. Hop, hop; braaa— But then something happened. I’ll never know what. Suddenly, I was falling, crashing and bouncing and plunging to the dirt floor below.
• • •
Some people talk about near-death experiences as though the sky opened up and angels sang and the good and the bad—their entire lives—flashed before their eyes in a split second. I’m here to tell you that that’s a bunch of baloney. At least it was for me. Despite floating in and out of consciousness while I nearly bled to death at the base of the mountain, and despite talking to the paramedics when they finally arrived two hours later, I don’t remember anything about my accident until I woke up in the ICU three and a half weeks later.
The story, though, goes something like this.
When he saw what was happening, my friend tried to grab my rope. It didn’t work. Instead, I nearly landed on him. I crumpled onto my stomach. Rolling me onto my back, he saw blood pulsing from a gash on my head. My right shoulder and jaw were askew. I was still breathing.
January is early in the year for rock climbing in Tennessee. It’s a cold country. Sometimes, it snows. We’d seen other climbers earlier in the day; now, we were alone. My friend had no choice—he left me and ran.
He ran the mile down to the parking lot. When he arrived at my car, he saw glass on the ground. The driver’s side window was broken. He searched for my cell phone; it wasn’t there. My wallet was gone, too. Thieves are notorious for trying to steal climbing gear.
There was nothing else to do. He drove like a madman. At the first house he saw: Knock! knock! knock!; no answer. At the second, he heard shots. Was that a gun? Finally, at the third house, “Hullo?” He called 9-1-1. The family gave him a blanket. He raced back to where he’d left me.
Adrenaline had made him invincible.
I’d been a good girl. I was still there. Barely.
“I- I’m sorry,” I tried to say.
“Shh,” he said.
In the dark and cold, we waited.
End of Part One
Note: Self-belaying is an advanced rock climbing technique that only experts should attempt. At the time of the accident, I’d been rock climbing several times but was by no means an expert. My friend was far more experienced than I, but this accident was not his fault. Sometimes, things just happen. And sometimes, they happen for a reason.
P.S. I’ll get back to writing about my experiences in Asia soon. Please bear with me. ;)
- how to not die: the rescue (jesscy.com)
- how to not die: the i.c.u. (jesscy.com)
- how to not die: the missing piece (jesscy.com)
- how to not die: the road to recovery (jesscy.com)
- Woman rescued after fall from Waldens Bluff (chattanoogan.com)—The news article about my accident